some days are easier....

Some days you just deserve everything that is 'given' to you.  Other days you think why am I so blessed?!! And other days you just want to cry because some thing bad happened or because something happy happened; and today is my day to cry.
This weekend I lost one of the greatest people I know, our dear dear close family friend Paul.  He was my dad's best friend but like a big brother/ a second dad.  He taught me so much and was such a great example to me and my family was so kind and dear to us.  I have known him my whole life.  What a sad day to hear such devastating news! :(  I don't know what else to say except he will be missed ESPECIALLY from my family.  We love you Paul!
On the other hand today was a day to laugh and play in the snow.  We basically got snowed in today but still had to go to work with almost a foot of snow.  As I approached work I had to help me dear friends Kylee and Melissa from work out of the snow as they both had slid into a bank of snow at an intersection :)  It was great fun! :)
I am also crying today because Satan is real. He is REAL.  that's all I can say about that.  Satan is real and pushing my buttons and there was a strike and it hurt. and now I feel bad.  Patience and prayers are real too and that is where I would much rather be. :)
I love my life.  It can get stressful sometimes but we need to remember patience and a smile :)  It can go a long way.  I'm still learning and struggling with this.  Please forgive me.
Just a lot of emotions happening at once.
Hope you all had a great day!!

engagement story coming soon....

wedding ideas

The stress is starting to build.
I'm worried about girls camp.
i'm worried about things are work.
I'm worried about the wedding and how to make it exactly how I want it/to be perfect and i'm just freaking out a little...
But as of late Mike and I have wondered if moving the wedding up would work better.  everyone around me thinks we should. I was worried mom would care, but she doesn't. my sister, my best friend, my friends at work and many others think that moving it up would be better, more fun, less stressful, and HECK YES!!  But I don't know. I have always wanted a summer wedding and I fee like if I move it up I will regret it later or crush my dream. (ya know you only get married once).
Mike and I are having a hard time deciding.
Insight would help.
I'm torn, because my all means i would love to 'get it over with'. and enjoy the summer with him and have a less stressful semester while he is in school. but I have my wedding planned out in my head and on paper etc and just want to fulfill my dream.
What do you think?!?!

YEP....

You heard and read right.... BRACE FACE on this face for five very long months! :(
but i just have to remember at least it's not two years and it will look better in the end. just remember that Lanae. i think i can. i think i can.
UGH but i hate them. but nothing i can do about it now. just trying to enjoy it. UGH
ill post a picture soon I'm sure.
i never thought i would be getting braces at 27 YEARS OLD!!!  UGH
now i can officially relate to my patients and I can officially be apart of this largely known cult/club...braces club/ braces face club. bring it on...four eyes and braces! UGH!
oh well. ill laugh about it later.
love my dr.'s to death but hate them for making me put braces on during my engagement! UGH
LOL see im laughing about it now HAHA

ugh...

I wish I could just get married tomorrow!!
I hate having to wait SOOO long! :( I have waited FOUR years to get married to this man, and now your telling me I have to wait EIGHT more LONG months!! UGH!  so many others are getting married before me and/or got engaged after me and are still getting married before me!! UGH!
GEEZ
but really. WHY?!
elope?
Wait?
move up the wedding day?
Hmmmm.....decisions, decisions. decisions.....
What would you do?!?!

stress really does exist

Wow,
talk about a frustrating day already and it's only noon!! AHHH
let's just get this all over with and be done. i don't want to drag this out any longer.
i hate having to work around so many people and so many places. i have no patience and no time for this. working 40 hr a week plus planning girls camp and a wedding. i need people to help me out here. be a little more open with communication and timing. like really people. geez. I'm going in-sane over here!  some support would be nice.
sorry just had to vent.

August 2, 2013

Will be The Best Day Ever!
Every day I get more and more excited about marrying my best friend. He is so handsome and thoughtful and smart. and he loves me and lets me be me. He tells me I'm beautiful; and means it; no matter what. He is my love. and he is my everything.
It will be a long 7 months, but I can do it. right?
I have pretty much everything planned already (thanks to be older and knowing exactly what you want. and having great friends and family help me and support me with everything)!
I love you all! and can't wait to see you all at my reception, while I am wearing white :)
It's finally MY turn!!