I don't understand!
why? and why?
I'm such a failure. to me and everyone around me. sorry.
All I need is my love :)
Friday, January 20, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Why...
Why is there no snow? (not complaining)
Why am I so poor?
Why do I have so many crafty ideas? I love accomplishing things with my hands.
Why am I doing this?
Why do I have a great family?!! :)
Why did I do that?
Why do I love music so much?
Why do I wish and need to do that SO bad?! Looks like I have a few goals this year!
Why am I always cold?
Why am I so shy?
Why do I love being social yet being so shy at the same time?
Why is someone always better at something than me?
Why do we always have excuses?
Why do I judge myself so harshly?
Why do I compare myself to celebrities and other family and friends?
Why do I love kids so much?
Why do I love my nieces and nephews SO much?
Why do I have a need to keep in contact with everyone I meet?
Why do I not do this or that?
Why do I want to help every suffering child I see or meet? I want to volunteer and/or adopt suffering children from around the world.
I would love to do this and that and that and that....etc.
I have several goals for this year and I hope I can accomplish them all; well most of them.
I have a yearning to learn and accomplish a few things in my life and I just hope this year I can get started on those few things. I just wish some things didn't get in the way or that accomplishing them you never ran into problems, boy, wouldn't that be nice. I wish things could go as we planned. But we have a purpose in life and Heavenly Father has a plan for us and it works out perfect in the end.
I love my life and love my family and friends!
Happy 2012 :)
Why am I so poor?
Why do I have so many crafty ideas? I love accomplishing things with my hands.
Why am I doing this?
Why do I have a great family?!! :)
Why did I do that?
Why do I love music so much?
Why do I wish and need to do that SO bad?! Looks like I have a few goals this year!
Why am I always cold?
Why am I so shy?
Why do I love being social yet being so shy at the same time?
Why is someone always better at something than me?
Why do we always have excuses?
Why do I judge myself so harshly?
Why do I compare myself to celebrities and other family and friends?
Why do I love kids so much?
Why do I love my nieces and nephews SO much?
Why do I have a need to keep in contact with everyone I meet?
Why do I not do this or that?
Why do I want to help every suffering child I see or meet? I want to volunteer and/or adopt suffering children from around the world.
I would love to do this and that and that and that....etc.
I have several goals for this year and I hope I can accomplish them all; well most of them.
I have a yearning to learn and accomplish a few things in my life and I just hope this year I can get started on those few things. I just wish some things didn't get in the way or that accomplishing them you never ran into problems, boy, wouldn't that be nice. I wish things could go as we planned. But we have a purpose in life and Heavenly Father has a plan for us and it works out perfect in the end.
I love my life and love my family and friends!
Happy 2012 :)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2011 Christmas
This year I was able to have a few days off work and go home early before Christmas. I left wed. morning (Dec 21) and came back to Idaho Falls a week later (Dec 27), which felt so good.
I promised myself that I was just going to go home and hang out with my parents and other family, and my best friend, and just have fun and do a few crafts. because usually I manage to make a day full of appointments of this and that.
Wed. I got home right when mom was getting off work so we hung out at home that night and waited for dad to show up after work. We caught up and just relaxed.
Thurs. I slept in, then got dressed and put on my blue and orange! made one small needed appointment. came back home and cleaned and organized my messy room; all day. That night we went to my Uncles for a fun family get together for the BSU bowl game! GO BSU BRONCOS!!
Fri. slept in again. then mom and I hung out again and baked, did a little shopping. Later that night we went to my grandparents house for the Ward family Christmas party. We were able to have a few of the cousins from college and that live a little farther away be there; but we were still missing almost half the family! My younger cousin was asked to put together a little program and she did a great job. Her and her little sister played the piano and violin. my other younger cousin read the scripture story of Christs birth. We also had the Elders say a few words and sing a Christmas duet for us (the Elders live in my grandparents basement). The little cousins also acted out the nativity. We were also privileged to hear some fun Christmas memories from my grandpa's childhood. It's always fun to hear how things were 'back then' and how my grandpa grew up :) We ate yummy food and chatted and laughed til late :)
Sat. hung out with mom and dad. For dinner we were able to have my little brother over and my older brother and his pregnant wife over for more yummy homemade food!! Mom, dad and I stayed up later than we should of watching movies and anticipating Santa's arrival.
Sun. we kind of slept in. Got dressed. ate breakfast. Then slowly made it to the living room to open gifts. Since it was only the three of us that morning we were able to take our time and enjoy our gifts. It took us about tow hours. We then realized what time it was and hurried to get ready for one p.m. church and enjoyed meeting people in my parents new ward and listening to the Christmas program.
Mon. mom and I had to run to the store to get a few needed things. When we got home I quickly got my new sewing machine out and started my first project! It took me The Whole Day!! It took longer than I thought it would, but I had so much fun!! I actually love sewing and can't wait to make SO many things on it!! By the end of the night I was realizing how much more I had to get done; packing etc. before I wanted to leave by 10am the next morning. That night I think I was up until 3am making sure my project was done enough so take it back with me. but heck you mine as well finish it. so I did.
Tues. morning I had a tooth appointment. But that appointment lead to another a very unexpected one. but then realized, again, I had so much to do before I had to leave. All day Tues. I did exactly what i promised I would NOT do...appointments. I was running all across town trying to get and do last minute things. Right before I was to leave I looked down and up and down and up again, reading my oil change sticker, and thinking, yep I HAVE to get the done before I drive four more hours...so there goes another hour!! I did not leave until 3:30pm Tues. but that is ok. Safety and preparation is better than being selfish. I made good time back to Idaho Falls. I had to work the next two days up in Rexburg, so I had to get up Early. But it turned out to go very smoothly.
All in all I had a great relaxing Christmas, hanging out with family and friends and mom and dad. I sure missed everyone I was not able to spend it with and or see.
Love you!
(sorry I was too lazy and just having fun spending quality time with everyone that I didn't take a single picture)
I promised myself that I was just going to go home and hang out with my parents and other family, and my best friend, and just have fun and do a few crafts. because usually I manage to make a day full of appointments of this and that.
Wed. I got home right when mom was getting off work so we hung out at home that night and waited for dad to show up after work. We caught up and just relaxed.
Thurs. I slept in, then got dressed and put on my blue and orange! made one small needed appointment. came back home and cleaned and organized my messy room; all day. That night we went to my Uncles for a fun family get together for the BSU bowl game! GO BSU BRONCOS!!
Fri. slept in again. then mom and I hung out again and baked, did a little shopping. Later that night we went to my grandparents house for the Ward family Christmas party. We were able to have a few of the cousins from college and that live a little farther away be there; but we were still missing almost half the family! My younger cousin was asked to put together a little program and she did a great job. Her and her little sister played the piano and violin. my other younger cousin read the scripture story of Christs birth. We also had the Elders say a few words and sing a Christmas duet for us (the Elders live in my grandparents basement). The little cousins also acted out the nativity. We were also privileged to hear some fun Christmas memories from my grandpa's childhood. It's always fun to hear how things were 'back then' and how my grandpa grew up :) We ate yummy food and chatted and laughed til late :)
Sat. hung out with mom and dad. For dinner we were able to have my little brother over and my older brother and his pregnant wife over for more yummy homemade food!! Mom, dad and I stayed up later than we should of watching movies and anticipating Santa's arrival.
Sun. we kind of slept in. Got dressed. ate breakfast. Then slowly made it to the living room to open gifts. Since it was only the three of us that morning we were able to take our time and enjoy our gifts. It took us about tow hours. We then realized what time it was and hurried to get ready for one p.m. church and enjoyed meeting people in my parents new ward and listening to the Christmas program.
Mon. mom and I had to run to the store to get a few needed things. When we got home I quickly got my new sewing machine out and started my first project! It took me The Whole Day!! It took longer than I thought it would, but I had so much fun!! I actually love sewing and can't wait to make SO many things on it!! By the end of the night I was realizing how much more I had to get done; packing etc. before I wanted to leave by 10am the next morning. That night I think I was up until 3am making sure my project was done enough so take it back with me. but heck you mine as well finish it. so I did.
Tues. morning I had a tooth appointment. But that appointment lead to another a very unexpected one. but then realized, again, I had so much to do before I had to leave. All day Tues. I did exactly what i promised I would NOT do...appointments. I was running all across town trying to get and do last minute things. Right before I was to leave I looked down and up and down and up again, reading my oil change sticker, and thinking, yep I HAVE to get the done before I drive four more hours...so there goes another hour!! I did not leave until 3:30pm Tues. but that is ok. Safety and preparation is better than being selfish. I made good time back to Idaho Falls. I had to work the next two days up in Rexburg, so I had to get up Early. But it turned out to go very smoothly.
All in all I had a great relaxing Christmas, hanging out with family and friends and mom and dad. I sure missed everyone I was not able to spend it with and or see.
Love you!
(sorry I was too lazy and just having fun spending quality time with everyone that I didn't take a single picture)
2012
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I first have to thank everyone; family and friends, close and far; who made 2011 a great year!
This new years was a little different from last years...I was tired by 8pm, but some how managed to stay up til about 12:30am. I was watching a Red Box movie and was not paying attention to the time, until my sister looked at her phone and realized the new year came about 20 minutes prior. We said Happy New Year, finished the movie then zonked to our pillows; because of course this year church is at 9am. we barely made it.
Today I had my day planned out: church, eat finger food, nap (a long time), dinner, sleep.
Well, like always plans never go liked hoped. So it ended up like: church, finger food (all afternoon), sewing project while watching two church movies, put my Christmas decor away, clean room, more unnecessary finger food, and play with the kids all in between. Still a productive day, I guess. I just wish I would let myself take naps. hopefully some day.
I'm thinking this new year has some good things in it! :)
I first have to thank everyone; family and friends, close and far; who made 2011 a great year!
This new years was a little different from last years...I was tired by 8pm, but some how managed to stay up til about 12:30am. I was watching a Red Box movie and was not paying attention to the time, until my sister looked at her phone and realized the new year came about 20 minutes prior. We said Happy New Year, finished the movie then zonked to our pillows; because of course this year church is at 9am. we barely made it.
Today I had my day planned out: church, eat finger food, nap (a long time), dinner, sleep.
Well, like always plans never go liked hoped. So it ended up like: church, finger food (all afternoon), sewing project while watching two church movies, put my Christmas decor away, clean room, more unnecessary finger food, and play with the kids all in between. Still a productive day, I guess. I just wish I would let myself take naps. hopefully some day.
I'm thinking this new year has some good things in it! :)
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