February

Is the month for love right? Well you better get your special someone something special!!
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Well besides waiting for this baby to come, this year has seemed to be a year of reflection and learning my self confidence and controlling emotions .  I obviously have a lot to learn since almost every week so far there has been a lesson/something to learn.  Today it was controlling my emotions, I think; at work there was some frustration in scheduling and charting patient notes and as my boss was talking to all of us at the end of the day I felt my tears coming, but I held them back.  I thought I can't do this now in front of everyone! How ridiculous would that be.  It's a silly task to cry about.  Oh boy 8 more weeks, I can do this...Right?

I know I look QUITE SILLY, don't laugh; but this is me feeling lonely, stressed, overwhelmed,  excited, happy, and emotionally ready for her to arrive! :)

I have been wanting to write on my blog for a few days now and now I can't remember exactly what I was going to say.  I just remember thinking oh ya that would be a good blog post. Dang oh well. Pregnancy brain, ugh...


12 Pregnancy updates:

1) About a month ago I went to my Dr appt. and he said I had gained about 5 lbs in three/four weeks! YIKES! That put me over the edge.  He said continue to move around a lot and exercise, do pilates, yoga, walk, whatever.  I took that to heart maybe a little too much.  It got me quite depressed about myself and about my weight. I told my husband I was very concerned and didn't like how I would gain like 5 lbs every few weeks.  I didn't do anything come my next appt and I had gained like 3-5 more lbs!! AHH! Ok this is NOT cool! So my next day off I spent about 30 minutes trying to find the best prenatal pilates/yoga videos.  I did it and felt great! :) I did it about four times before my next appt. (yesterday) and I LOST a pound! Yay! I thought. But the Dr's thoughts were not the same; he was concerned and asked if I had been sick and feeling ok.  I said oh ya I feel fine, no sickness here.  He said ok.  But the words never came out to tell him what I had been doing.  I don't know why. So we will see how my next appt. goes.
2) She has been teh busiest busy body ever! Tuesday she was going CraZy all day! Which was fun but also annoying. And today she has been the same way.  I'm not sure how to think about that; is she going to be that way when she gets here??
3) I'm finding it hard to keep my belly covered, haha. I think it's time to find some true maternity shirts and pants. haha
4) I get SO tired these days. It didn't hit me til this week. It's only Wed. and I'm SOO ready for the weekend.  And I have this whole month left to work, ugh haha. I shouldn't complain.
5) I can't wait to meet her!! And neither can Mike! I just LOVE hearing him tell everyone just HOW STOKED and EXCITED he is to meet her.
6) My life is going to change so much I'm not ready.  In fact, I think about it as I go grocery shopping and just run errands, I panic for a second and think oh no!I forgot my baby in the car.  Then I look down or just feel my belly and realize she is with me, I didn't forget her.
7) I really just want my sleep comfort back.
8) I don't know if I know how to take care of a baby. I'm so worried for when I come home after the hospital.  I know kids well, but only if they are about 1 year and up.  I don't know babies.  I'm very frightened for myself. Mom?....
9) Life is about to get busy. Very busy. and Very 'not my normal' schedule.  It will be quite an adjustment.  I don't know if I can picture myself with a baby yet.  It's still so weird to me.
10) I can't wait to meet her and give her a name and see how my husband interacts with her.  He told me at church on Sunday that he was going to be a baby hog.  I said, "yes, I know" and he just laughed and said ya it will also be a good excuse. And then I just laughed at him.  First thought; I NEED HAVE to get a Moby wrap so I can hold her all the time and say sorry she's cozy and sleeping mwahaha (Is that too mean of a thought)??
11) I have like nothing! a few baby outfits.  Two dresses. One blanket. A few random things and that's it!  Oh boy I need to get shopping!! yikes!
12)  I better enjoy my last few days alone, and get all those projects done (HAHA).  And
WE NEED A NAME FOR BABY DUKE!!


Thanks for reading (if you made it this far). I figure I need to start writing down all of these fun crazy baby thoughts before I get too busy.

We are "ready" for her to arrive!!

Love the Dukes :)